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emotionally exhausted i also have 3 points
Wow what a day. i am getting a bit tired of these roller coaster days, i need some with smooth sailing. i guess knowing Master is here is what keeps me going when things start to go haywire.
i woke this morning with these words on my mind. i am happy, healthy and wholly owned by Master Dave. What an awesome way to wake up, because inside of me i knew they were true words. i know the happiness He brings.. and i am wholly owned by Him and Him alone.
Feelings.. what am i feeling? humm calm and peaceful, loved and yearning for my Masters touch.
i couldn't follow through with my task last night and that bothered me, but i got the chance to tell Master about it and start clean. Strange.. how different i acted.. used to i would lie about it and go on, but for this Master there will be no lies and there will be no deception. i either believe He is there for me or i do not.. plain and simple. i never never want to give my Master a cause to feel disappointed in me.. my desire is that He be proud of me at all times.
On another front.. i started my diet today
i guess i should talk about what took place between russ and me. once again his anger scared the crap out of me. Why does he want to throw things and hit me. Thank God i made it to Anita's room in time and got the door locked, because i do not know what would have happened.
If i were Master i would seriously considering walking away from this mess, i hate for him to see this side of my life. It's a part of me that i want to shield from Him, but He will not hear of it. i seriously just walking away from Him was i was in Anita's bedroom scared and crying.. i thought.. who in their right mind needs this stuff.. and i love Him so much .. i should protect Him from it, but once again i must acquiesce to Master and do as He asks.
Speaking of My Master.. lol.. i forgot to tell Him exactly how much i want Him when i was talking to Him today. How much i would love for Him to see me stripped, awaiting His inspection and preparing my mind for His use. How i want to take His clothes off and touch, lick, massage every square inch of His body. Oh how i want to feel His hands on me .. have His use me.. have Him allow me to please Him. If You ask me.. i think i have waited long enough!! i think the next time i see Him i will beg with all my heart and perhaps He will consent to finally taking me and using me.
i so adore Masters cock.. mmm mmm mmm the smell of it, the taste and the feel of it in my mouth. Masters cock is wonderful and i hope that one day soon Master will let me suck His cock again.
His hands are beautiful also.. lol.. i can almost get off to just sucking one of His fingers. i cannot wait until i get all the parts of my Master naked in a room ready to use me.. what a great day that will be.
i am so ready to turn myself over to Him to guide me to where He wants me to go. i am excited about the thought of where exactly where that might be and just how far down the rabbit hole i am going to go.. i so look forward to doing things with Master that He has never done either. i am not quite sure what that is yet, but i am sure there is something he has yet to try, but has fantasized about.
oops Anita is home i have to go
